November is Diabetes awareness month.
I thought maybe this would be a good time to try and restart or continue writing my blog. Never quit quitting right?
I often need to tell myself to never give up. Keep going. Tomorrow is a new day. Don't look back, look ahead. I've been trying to be a cheerleader to myself for a few weeks now. I believe I've had a bit of diabetes burnout. My blood sugars haven't been their best, I haven't been testing as often as I should, I haven't been wearing my CGM and going to the gym? Ha! I also feel like I have not been an active member of the DOC in months.
With a recent visit to the Endo office a few weeks ago I was recently motivated to get back on track. I've been testing more and taking a less carb approach when I can. (I do love carbs, but they don't love me back.) I haven't been inclined to wear my CGM yet, but I feel I may need it soon to attack the pesky highs in the morning. Alas, the gym part...I've attempted to start going back to our local YMCA and with a fresh new membership and all it should be easy and fun right? However, I find myself being very frustrated and annoyed. Yesterday I packed the Gatorade, turned off my insulin pump and had my Annie's organic fruit snacks readily available, my 90's pop music channel on Pandora and I was pumped and set to go!! I get 30 minutes in on a cardio bike and BAM! Blood glucose 54. WTH?! I still feel like I have mad skillz and the energy to finish the 60 minute cardio I pumped myself up for, plus, I hadn't heard any TLC yet! Just 30 minutes in and it feels like a wasted trip to the gym! I felt so defeated. I didn't want to go back...ever. Why bother?
When I arrived home that evening, after a 20 minute fruit snack party in my car, I vented my frustrations to the DOC. The feedback was that I did more than I gave myself credit for. I was there, I did what I could and tomorrow is a new day. I felt a bit more empowered after that. There are more people out there in the DOC cheering for me and I owe it to myself and to the DOC to try again tomorrow. I won't give up. I will never quit quitting.
Thank you DOC, without you I wouldn't be as strong as I am today, even at my weakest I'm stronger than I was before.
Tomorrow is a brand new day! I am going through a bit of a burnout. hang in there...you can do this. hugs!
ReplyDeleteThank you Cherise! Hugs! It helps when we do this together!
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